Stay at home mom

I hate when I know I need some time by myself but I feel like a bad mom when I need someone to take him for a few hours. I hate it because I know my mother-in-law with make a comment about how she never needed to have time off and how she was a fucking super mom. I don't care. She has no idea what its like to try to fight depression and be a good wife and mother and friend and everything else that I am supposed to be all the time. Especially when I am fighting my fucking allergies too! I feel like my head it going to explode as it is. And my period and just everything! I am so fucking tired right now and I just need to be alone or I am going to lose it. Thankfully my husband gets it and knows that sometimes I need to be alone. He went out to dinner with a friend and had his parents take E so I am sitting here drinking a glass of wine and hanging out in the quiet. Now I will be recharged for the next 3 weeks without my partner in crime.